I have so many things to do. So many are just things that need to get done like household chores. Others are actually not so bad to-do's, things like getting back to my jewelry taking pictures of me huge jewelry inventory to finally put on Etsy. Reading a book is also one of me to-do's, but that one hasn't been checked off my list for a couple of weeks now. Yet all I want to do is sit on the couch or take a nap. I am stuck between have no motivation to do anything and the guilt of not having done a thing. This feeling is only accentuated today by the fact that Piper had me up twice last night. She fell back to sleep soon after, but it still disrupted my sleep. This mama doesn't do well without sleep and I was trying to make up for the measly 3 hours I had the night before because I was trying to talk Mike's mom down off the proverbial ledge after she picked a huge fight with him (and nothing is ever HER fault) - but that's a whole 'nother story. We had family here 8 out of the last 11 days. Fortunately it wasn't consecutive, but it has only added to my to-do's in more ways than one.
I have so many things I either need to do or want to do and I am so behind I feel like I don't know where to start. So I don't, but that doesn't leave me feeling good either. I want out of this motivation funk. I want to not waste so much time. I want to feel productive. People can excuse me all they want telling me "well, you are busy enough because you have a toddler". Not so. It's a good exuse, but only I know the real truth. Only I know how much time I waste watching TV, reading my email, blogging, and catching up on my Hollywood gossip with Perez.
Yet here I am still at the 'puter and about to pour myself a cup of coffee, put Pip down for the morning nap and plant my butt down on the couch to watch Young & the Restless (another guilty pleasure). The sweeping an dvaccuming aren't going anwhere and the potentially frostbitten garden can wait until later to be inspected (thank you last night's storm for blowing the cover off of my tomatoes). I suppose it will all get done eventually, but we never really get it done - do we?
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5 comments:
Oh Erin, I hear you! I have been feeling completely overwhelmed lately by my seemingly ever-increasing to-do list, and I really have been trying to get things done but the kids' schedule seems to interrupt every project I start. Motherhood is frustrating that way, and I too am a Mama that needs sleep. Good luck with the fresh start of Autumn; I am right there with ya!
I don't even have small children as an excuse!
Okay...so do the placemat process...and then do it again. Just for today. Don't do tomorrow's yet. If you end up only putting one thing down on your side of the placemat today, that's okay. It's one thing less to do tomorrow, right?
In the meantime, find a better feeling thought. Self-blame is not a better feeling thought. Guilt is not a better feeling thought. But it's okay to feel them...just remember to move on from there, don't let it eat up your whole day.
Hugs, Gina
You just commented on my blog, asking where I have been and I have been trying to get out of my lack of motivation funk!! I have been trying to get my house clean (and keep it that way) and stop my kids from watching so much TV!! I don't watch much TV during the day, but I read a lot, probably too much, and I just read the summer away!! I'm loving the cooler weather (even though it never really got very hot here) and it helps me feel more motivated. I definitely go through phases of low motivation, it is hard to find the time to do everything for my kids, my house, my husband AND myself. The "myself" part has definitely become less and less important as I have had more kids, but I know that won't last forever, they won't be so dependent forever. Anyway, everything is fine with me, I'm just trying to lay off the internet a little!!
BTW-LOVE that John Mayer song on your playlist!!
Let's hear it for Motivation Funk! I have been in a huge funk and the thing is Erin..it is never ending for me. I feel like there is never a break form getting things done and then it overwhelms me even more!
I've decided that if I am dressed and the kids have a decent day than I have been productive!!!
Go take a break with a cup of Joe and watch some TV..we all deserve it right?
Erin, thanks so much for the comment you left on my blog. I NEVER think your comments are "all about you"- Erin, I completely relate with you on so many levels, and am kicking myself now that we weren't better friends in college! I was always too busy with boyfriends to invest in friends, and it's something I really regret now. I love your comments, I love your posts, I love your thoughts and opinions! I have so much in common with you Erin, and truly, I consider myself lucky to be your friend again. Thanks for your words and support and encouragement. That post about my mom was mainly for me and for journaling purposes, so receiving moral support from friends has just been a great perk. Thanks Erin.
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