One of the many gifts that motherhood has given me was the chance to refocus and re-prioritize. Becoming a mother just over a year ago really threw me into a tailspin. I am having a life crisis of sorts. Don't get me wrong, I love that we have our little Piper now - she just turned my life upside-down. Now I am trying to find some semblance of balance and order again and some things (not just clothing) don't fit so well or have a place to go anymore. I have recognized that behaviors and attitudes that have served me thus far in life no longer do so, but I am finding it interesting trying to find a way to stop doing things I have done nearly all of my life. Habits so ingrained that you often don't know they exist.
This where the title of my blog comes from. So many of my attitudes and beliefs are contrary and limiting to what I really want in life. I am essentially in the way my own progress. A great example of this for me is being as Dr. Phil would say a "right-fighter". I am almost always right and I am not just saying that, but why do I have to be right even when it means I am going to get into an argument with Mike over it or I have to get pissed off at someone over it. As Abraham would say, would I rather be right or rather be happy?
With that said, I would like to set some intentions for why I am doing this blog. Everywhere I look someone or something is telling me how important it is to write down my goals so I must need to do it.
I intend for this to be a place for me to articulate my thoughts. I have so much going on in my head these days that it would be good for me to organize some of it here.
I also intend for this place to be a place for me to be me - not the person I think someone else expects me to be or the person that has always tried to fit in. My facade has served its purpose, but it's getting heavier to carry. It's not that I am a completely different person than I portray myself to be, I just hold certain cards very close to me, especially when it comes to my personal beliefs. I am who I am and I want to truly embrace that.
It's none of my business what other people think of me (thanks again, Abraham).
About Me
- Erin
- I'm a 30-something stay-at-home mom trying to find a balance between being a good mom and carrying on my passion as a jewelry designer.
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1 comments:
I think that when you become a mother later in life you think that you already really know who you are, at least that was the case for me. My experience was that I actually didn't really know who I was, and at the same time I was so set in my ways. I definitely was put into a tailspin for about a year or so (sometimes I still feel that way!!). I felt totally out of whack.
Part of the beauty of having children is what it does to help you discover who you are and what is really important, even though it isn't always pretty!! It is still really hard for me to find balance because I am so completely dedicated to my children that doing something for myself can feel selfish, but it isn't!!! You will only be a better mommy for it! It is so easy to lose yourself in all the craziness. Sometimes I tell myself that I will find myself again when my kids are older :)
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